October 11, 2011

Acceptance

By Joe
Acceptance
The guilt, the anguish, the torture and the pain
I’ve struggled with this demon, always knowing it was in vain
Once a free spirit, a picture of joy, 
but the mask I have worn, I now have to destroy.
The awful lies and continuous deception,
Destined to be ruined by my own self-destruction
But the time has come to face the truth of my soul
I won’t be consumed by the decay of this black hole.
Before you judge me please hold on to this thought:
I am still the same person; it was never your fault.
I have come to accept who I am today
Please do the same mother, father; I am gay.

About Joe

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I began my life in the South and for five years lived as a closeted teacher, but am now making a new life for myself as an oral historian in New England. I think my life will work out the way it was always meant to be. That doesn't mean there won't be ups and downs; that's all part of life. It means I just have to be patient. I feel like October 7, 2015 is my new birthday. It's a beginning filled with great hope. It's a second chance to live my life…not anyone else's. My profile picture is "David and Me," 2001 painting by artist Steve Walker. It happens to be one of my favorite modern gay art pieces. View all posts by Joe
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