Monthly Archives: March 2018

Moment of Zen: Basketball

I’ve yet to watch any of the NCAA March Madness, but I have a few games on tomorrow that I want to watch. I played basketball in high school and love to watch the tournament when it is on. You never know who’s going to win.


There are so many things to say, but I don’t know where to start. First, I want to thank everyone for their compassionate comments yesterday. It’s so hard losing a friend, and though he’d been very sick for years, there is no way to prepare yourself for the loss of a friend.

Second, if you’ve never experienced clinical depression, then you are very lucky. It’s more than just being sad. A constant sense of hopelessness and despair is a sign you may have major depression, also known as clinical depression. Some of the symptoms might include:

• Fatigue or loss of energy almost every day

• Feelings of worthlessness or guilt almost every day

• Impaired concentration, indecisiveness

• Insomnia or hypersomnia (excessive sleeping) almost every day

• Markedly diminished interest or pleasure in almost all activities nearly every day (called anhedonia, this symptom can be indicated by reports from significant others)

• Restlessness or feeling slowed down

• Recurring thoughts of death or suicide

• Significant weight loss or gain (a change of more than 5% of body weight in a month)

If you are feeling these symptoms, please talk to your healthcare provider and seek help. You can’t understand until you try therapy or medication how significantly different you can feel. It is possible to live a normal life again.

Third, and this is random, I chose the picture above for no other reason than because I find the guy sexy. I love his green eyes that go perfectly with his green shirt. I love the almost smile on his face. He’s just beautiful to me.

Finally, there are a myriad of other things I could talk about, but I’m gonna leave it at that.

The Loss of a Loved One

Sometimes I’m grouchy, sometimes I’m sad, and sometimes I cry. All those things are because I am clinically depressed. I take medicine for it and on most days it helps. However, when tragedy strikes, even the medicine doesn’t help. I cried myself to sleep Tuesday night and cried again Wednesday morning. A good friend of mine, whose suffered from a debilitating disease for years, passed away. He had been there for me in one of my darkest hours and done so much to help me. He was a wonderful man: selfless, loving, and kind. I’ve only ever known one person to be as selflessly generous as he was, and she is a wonderful friend and I don’t know what I’d do without her. I will miss my friend who passed and my thoughts are with his friends and loved ones.


When I went to bed last night, we had gotten nine inches of snow. Now I love a good nine inches, just not of snow. It was supposed to snow through the night, and I have no doubt that it did. To top that off, it is supposed to snow all day today. The news was predicting six to twelve inches of snow in total from this nor’easter. It looks like we will get more than predicted. Maybe it will slow down and lightly snow the rest of the time. I really wish that the school would close today. There are no students here because of spring break, so there is no reason to be here. We had three people come into the museum today, besides the three of us at work. One was our interim director and the other two were there on business. No one came to the museum to see the museum. No one will come in today either. The university’s excuse for no snow days is that we have to cater to the students who live on campus, but since they aren’t here, there is no reason for us to be at the university either. What makes it worse is that I will probably be the sole person in the museum today. One of my coworkers is in Florida on a family emergency. The second lives in Burlington and has an hour commute which can be quite treacherous in these conditions. The third coworker’s babysitter has the flu and so he may not be able to come in today either. I just wish someone would listen to me about closing, but the powers that be won’t.

Don’t Quit

Don’t Quit

by John Greenleaf Whittier

When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you’re trudging seems all up hill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don’t you quit.
Life is strange with its twists and turns
As every one of us sometimes learns
And many a failure comes about
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don’t give up though the pace seems slow—
You may succeed with another blow.
Success is failure turned inside out—
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell just how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit—
It’s when things seem worst that you must not quit.

Spring Break

Working at an institution of higher learning has its privileges. We may not get many of the major holidays, but we get things like Christmas break and spring break. I only get Monday of spring break but it’s better than nothing. And trust me, I’d much rather be on the beach somewhere than waiting for the next nor’easter to hit. The nor’easter is expected to hit Tuesday and Wednesday. That’s like three in as many weeks. Had I been in the Deep South, I’d have gone to the beach this weekend, but instead I just took it easy at home. I will go to the grocery store tomorrow to stock up on some food for the nor’easter but the rest of the day will be a day of rest and relaxation. I’ll just pretend that I’m at the beach. Maybe I’ll watch something tropical on TV.

God’s Will

Those who know your name trust in you, for you, O LORD, do not abandon those who search for you. (NLT) (Psalm 9:10 )

Do you search for the Lord’s will in your life? When you make yourself vulnerable and available for God to have control over your life, it’s scary. It does not mean difficult times won’t come, instead, you have given Him the opportunity to be able to provide for you in the difficult times. Are you looking to God to provide as you search for Him?

When you walk with God, He will provide at just the right moment. When you take things into your own hands and push God out of your plans you prevent Him from having the opportunity to provide for you. In what areas have you stopped looking to God for direction?

Do you have an important decision to make that impacts your future? God has a perfect plan for your future, one that is in your best interest. Invite God to be part of your decision through prayer. Then look to the Word of God for guidance and principles to follow. He will guide your thoughts and show you wise truths to aid you in the decision. Finally, seek the advice of wise, respectable counsel.

From Daily Devotionals App.

Moment of Zen: Underwear


Thank goodness, it’s Friday, and I have a three day weekend. Next week is spring break, so we get Monday off. I wish we got the whole week, but that’s not how the university works. I still have lots of work to do that can’t wait. Oral history after oral history has to be edited. I will be glad when the editing process is finished. This weekend will be largely a lazy weekend. I have no plans whatsoever. I have no plans for Monday either except to sleep in. What are your plans this weekend?

Getting It Done

I got a lot done yesterday. I applied to two jobs, and I got two oral histories edited. I’m feeling very accomplished. Now I just have to get to work tomorrow. With this nor’easter we haven’t had much wind but we are expecting lots of snow. I will see in the morning how much actually accumulated and if I can get my car out without too much trouble. We shall see.

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