After my last visit with my neurologist in January, I’d begun to take vitamin B2 and magnesium to see if that would help prevent some of my headaches. It seemed to be helping for a month or so, but the last three weeks have been pretty damn rough. I’ve had a headache nearly every day for the past three weeks. I’m really hoping that when I see my neurologist today, she has some advice and can help. It seems every time I take a step forward in fighting my migraines, I end up taking two steps back. Nothing seems to help for long.

Tomorrow, I have an appointment with my primary care doctor.  I have a few things to discuss with him, and he will most likely check my A1C. Other than the headaches and a few occasional bouts of depression, I seem to be doing ok. I’ve lost a little weight, which should please him. Like my migraines, my weight is another constant struggle. Every time I lose a few pounds, they come right back a few days later. One step forward, two steps back. 

It’s like my life is one complex (and uncoordinated) line dance. 🕺 Why can’t it just let me do the Electric Slide, or better yet, the Boot Scootin’ Boogie, at least then I might have some fun doing it. Actually, line dancing or just about any kind of dance steps was something I was always horrible at. It was always more anxiety over getting the steps right than having fun. The only dance I ever mastered was the Hokey Pokey, or maybe that stupid Chicken Dance. 😂 

I’ve had a lot of migraine days lately. I’m not sure what’s going on, but I see my neurologist again soon. I suffered through yesterday at work with a migraine, but I’ll be staying home today.

I really just want to go back to bed. I woke this morning with a migraine. I had to get up and feed Isabella, but I slept about an hour later than I usually do. Thankfully, I am working from home today, so while I can’t really go back to bed (I do have some work to actually do), but I can at least enjoy the comfort of home.

I had a much different post in mind for today, but my migraine that started Tuesday has continued. Yesterday was particularly rough as I tried to work and just bear with it. I made it half a day. Although I have a ton of meetings, I’m not sure I’ll be able to make it in today at all. This has just been a particularly bad one.

It began early yesterday morning with sparkly lights, a.k.a. an aura. For those who may not know, migraines are sometimes preceded by an aura, a visual disturbance of some kind. Auras come in various forms. When I have one, it is small twinkly lights around the edge of my vision. Luckily, I am not one of those who completely lose parts of their vision during an aura because it happened yesterday while I was driving. Typically, it lasts for only a few seconds. I know a terrible migraine is coming when it lasts longer. It never lasts very long, but 30 seconds is enough to see that it’s going to be a rough day or two. This one certainly was. About an hour or so later, the migraine started. By lunchtime, the smallest amount of light was excruciating. I closed my eyes and slept most of the afternoon. Did sleeping help? No, not really. It may have made me feel better for a little bit, but the migraine would not go away. I don’t even want to eat when they’re bad like this. I went to bed for good last night a little after 9 pm. I had tried to stay up because too much sleep can worsen the migraine, but staying up wasn’t going to happen. I slept until Isabella woke me this morning. The migraine is still there. Maybe it is not as bad as yesterday. I need to be awake a little before I can really tell. If this was a normal week at work, I’d call in sick, but I need to be in my office today. I have things that need to get done. However, if it worsens in the next hour or so, I’ll have to decide whether to go in or not. Maybe I can stand a few hours and then come back home. We’ll see.

I’ve been experiencing a lot of anxiety this weekend, and it caused me to have a major migraine since Friday. So, I wasn’t up to writing much today.

I do not want to be awake this morning, and I don’t want to go to work. However, I can handle it for half a day. When I leave at lunch today, I won’t be back to the museum until the 27th. I’m taking tomorrow off, and then, I’ll be in Connecticut next week for a workshop. 

The main reason I don’t want to be awake this morning is because my back was hurting yesterday, and I had a migraine. So, I took a muscle relaxer which helped for a little while, but it makes me drowsy for usually a full day. It’s back hurting now, but not as bad. I’m going to see a physical therapist on March 28. I hope it will help.

If I didn’t have a class today, I’d basically either stay in bed or on the couch. I did not want to get out of bed this morning. I feel like crap. I’ve been taking a medicine for a minor infection that I had, and it has made me feel awful. I didn’t want to do anything all weekend nor did I have the energy. I pretty much didn’t do anything but napped and watched television. We had a very cold weekend here in Vermont, which didn’t help motivate me to do anything. Hopefully, if I don’t feel better, I can leave work after my class today.