September 12, 2013

Blue Days

By Joe

imageI think we all have those days when we just feel a bit blue, down in the dumps, or just plain melancholy. Yesterday was one of those days, and I suspect today will be as well. Many times, there is just no good reason for these moods, and on other days, there is a very good reason. Yesterday was one of those days with a reason. The thing is, I’m off work today; something that should make me happy. However, I’m off work today because I have something I have to do today that I don’t want to do. I really don’t want to go into an explanation of what I have to do today, but it’s going to be uncomfortable. I know that when it is over, a great weight will be lifted off my shoulders. It’s still something I wish I didn’t have to do, but I really don’t have a choice.

I know I’m being cryptic about what this is all about, but I can’t help it. I promise you guys that it is nothing really bad, but this is just something I have to face the facts about. I felt the need to write about my feelings in hopes that it will bring me some comfort. Sometimes it helps to just let the stream of consciousness flow, and after writing this, maybe I do feel a little better. I’d still much rather just stay in bed today and hide.

About Joe

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I began my life in the South and for five years lived as a closeted teacher, but am now making a new life for myself as an oral historian in New England. I think my life will work out the way it was always meant to be. That doesn't mean there won't be ups and downs; that's all part of life. It means I just have to be patient. I feel like October 7, 2015 is my new birthday. It's a beginning filled with great hope. It's a second chance to live my life…not anyone else's. My profile picture is "David and Me," 2001 painting by artist Steve Walker. It happens to be one of my favorite modern gay art pieces. View all posts by Joe
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