Monthly Archives: February 2025

Moment of Zen: Music


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TGIF

There isn’t much to say this morning. Thank goodness it’s Friday, and it’s a work from home day. I’ll work on material for next week’s class today, but there isn’t a whole lot else to do. I have a few emails to send out. I woke up with a bit of a migraine, which I hope will go away as the morning goes on. I have no plans for the weekend. I doubt I will leave my apartment on Sunday, though I may go downstairs to do some laundry. It’s expected to snow throughout Saturday night. There are no plans for tomorrow. I’m hoping for an easy, lazy weekend.

I hope everyone has a great weekend!


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Snowy Day

Today is going to be an ugly weather day. It started out at midnight last night at -4 degrees. The temperature has risen to 2 degrees and temps will climb throughout the day ending at 32 degrees by midnight.When the temperature rises like this, it usually means a nasty weather front is coming in. It’s dry outside right now, but around mid-morning snow and mixed precipitation should begin. According to our local meteorologist, the snow has a chance to turn to freezing rain on my commute home. I hate freezing rain. I can handle snow, sleet, and rain, but not freezing rain. If you’re not familiar with freezing rain, it comes down as supercooled rain that freezes when it contacts any surface, which means it leaves a glaze of ice everywhere. Ugh! I hate freezing snow.

Anyway, I wish I could just stay home and snuggle up with Isabella. She seems to always find a warm place to nap. The other day, she finally discovered a place that I’ve wanted her to try out for years. Several years ago, I bought her a little cat house, which she has always ignored. The most she has ever done is stick her head in and turn around and walk away.I also bought her a nice cozy looking, fluffy cat bed, which she has never even contemplated using. She prefers a fuzzy blanket. The other day, I looked up, and she was in the little house I’d gotten her. With her eyes closed, you could barely notice her, so I made a noise to get her to open her eyes. I took the opportunity to take the picture below. It apparently pissed her off that I saw her in there, and she crawled out and stomped off never to return again. Such a stubborn little girl!


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Two Hours

Jokes about porn dialogue and acting ability are not in short supply, but every once in a while, there are some golden lines, even if the lines delivery is terrible. Gay porn dialogue has gotten better in recently and some even have a “plot.” Yeah, I know, it’s hard to believe l, right? Through the years, there have been a few porn movies with a definite plot. Top Secret (2000) starring Corey Summers in two roles had a pretty decent plot, but if there is a plot in most porn movies, it’s barely there. Ok, I’m getting off track.

Vintage gay porn dialogue can be intentionally quite humorous at times. Of course, most of the time it is not intentional. I recently watched My Best Buddy (1988), which was most definitely short on plot. Basically, it is about two “best buddies” traveling separately across the country to spend the summer with one of the guy’s brother. The final scene is with Chris Williams (pictured above) and the aforementioned brother (I don’t know this actor’s name) they are going to stay with. So here’s the setup for the movie’s final scene:

Chris arrives first and the brother is not home. He’s let in by the apartment manager, who, of course, propositions him, but Chris says he just wants to take a shower to get the travel grime off him and take a nap. Cut to Chris getting undressed down to his white briefs and flopping down on the bed.

As he’s dozing off, the brother comes home, and Chris pretends to be asleep. The brother remarks that his brother’s friend “sure has grown up.” Then, creepily, begins to run his hand over the butt of the sleeping friend before pulling down the guy’s briefs and beginning to rim him. During all of this, Chris is awake but feigning sleep. 

Chris finally decides to wake up, and utters one of my favorite lines I’ve ever heard in porn, “I don’t know who you are, but you have about two hours to stop doing that.” I’m pretty sure you can figure out yourself what happens next. The movie ends with Chris and the brother naked post coitus in bed discussing plans for dinner when the other brother arrives. The two guys jump under the covers as the brother walks into the room and looks shocked that his brother and best buddy are naked in bed together. Then, fade to black.

The only thing about vintage gay porn that you have to suspend belief about is that so many of these guy’s died during the AIDS epidemic. Sadly, Chris Williams was one of those young men and died in 1992.


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Paul’s Tattoo

Paul’s Tattoo
By Mark Doty

The flesh dreams toward permanence,

and so this red carp noses from the inked dusk
of a young man’s forearm as he tilts

the droning burren of his trade toward
the blank page of my dear one’s bicep

—a scene framed, from where I watch,
in an arched mirror, a niche of mercuried glass

the shape of those prosceniums in which still lifes
reside, in cool museum rooms: tulips and medlars,

oysters and snails and flies on permanently
perishing fruit: vanitas. All is vanitas,

for these two arms—one figured, one just beginning
to be traced with the outline of a heart—

are surrounded by a cabinet of curiosities,
the tattooist’s reflected shelves of skulls

—horses, pigs?—and photos of lobes and nipples
shocked into style. Trappings of evil

unlikely to convince: the shop’s called 666,
a casket and a pitbull occupy the vestibule,

but the coffin’s pink and the hell-hound licked
our faces clean as the latex this bearded boy donned

to prick the veil my lover’s skin presents
—rent, now, with a slightly comic heart

warmly ironic, lightly shaded, and crowned
as if to mean feeling’s queen or king of any day,

certainly this one, a quarter-hour suddenly galvanized
by a rippling electric trace firing adrenalin

and an odd sense of limit defied.
Not overcome, exactly; this artist’s

filled his shop with evidence of that.
To what else do these clean,

Dutch-white bones testify? But resistant,
still, skin grown less subject to change,

ruled by what is drawn there:
a freshly shadowed corazon now heron-dark,

and ringed by blue exultant bits of flame
—yods, the Tarot calls them, fire-tongues

of intensity, as if the self contained too much
to be held, and flung out droplets

of sweat or flame, the dear proud flesh
—stingingly warm—a steadier hand

has raised into art, or a wound, or both.
The work’s done, our design complete.

A bandage, to absorb whatever pigment
the newly writ might weep,

a hundred guilders, a handshake, back out
onto the street. Now all his life

he wears his heart beneath his sleeve.

About the Poem

Mark Doty’s poem Paul’s Tattoo explores themes of memory, loss, and the lasting imprint of love and experience. The poem describes a tattoo on Paul’s arm—an image of a green-blue fish, likely a koi or something similarly symbolic. This tattoo serves as both a personal emblem and a broader metaphor for resilience, beauty, and the way past experiences stay with us.

Doty often writes about queer identity, mortality, and the AIDS crisis, and Paul’s Tattoo fits within these larger themes. The tattoo, permanent and vibrant, contrasts with the fragility of life. It suggests a desire for something lasting amid impermanence, perhaps hinting at Paul’s own struggles or the inevitability of loss. The poem’s language is lush and evocative, characteristic of Doty’s style, and it uses imagery of water and movement to reinforce ideas of transformation and survival.

Ultimately, Paul’s Tattoo is a meditation on how people carry their histories—both physically and emotionally. The tattoo becomes a marker of identity, love, and remembrance, much like poetry itself.

About the Poet

Mark Doty is an American poet and memoirist known for his luminous, deeply personal writing that explores themes of beauty, loss, memory, and queer identity. Born in 1953, he has published numerous acclaimed poetry collections, including My Alexandria (1993),Atlantis (1995), and Fire to Fire: New and Selected Poems (2008), which won the National Book Award. His work is often associated with elegy and reflection, particularly in response to the AIDS crisis, as seen in his moving poems about love and grief.

Doty is also a celebrated memoirist, with works like Heaven’s Coast (1996) and Dog Years (2007), in which he blends poetic language with deeply felt personal narratives. His writing is known for its lush imagery and precise attention to the physical world, often drawing on art, nature, and urban life.

A highly respected literary figure, Doty has received many awards, including the T.S. Eliot Prize, making him the first American to win the honor. He has also taught at various universities and is still an influential voice in contemporary poetry.


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