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Pain and Deliverance

You’ve kept track of my every toss and turn through the sleepless nights, each tear entered in your ledger, each ache written in your book.

— Psalm 56:8

I had a really bad migraine yesterday. As you know, having a migraine is not an uncommon occurrence for me. In fact, I’ve had one all week. I’ve been having migraine headaches all of my life (literally). Sometimes the pain is mild, sometimes severe. Yesterday’s migraine was a severe one. I have three medicines, Anaprox (550 mg naproxen), Amerge (naratriptan), and Vistaril (Hydroxyzine), that I can take all at once that usually will knock out the headache, but it also knocks me out of commission for at least 24 hours (my former neurologist said they did the same to her), so, I rarely take them in combination even though that’s how they are prescribed. I slept until 7 am this morning, which is why this post is being put up so late. I’m amazed Isabella let me sleep in this long. She tried to wake me, but she seemed to know when I was sick, and it was going to be a losing battle for her.

Thankfully, I was able to get out of bed in the morning with only a shadow migraine and without the nausea that often accompanies my worst headaches. Since it’s Sunday, I figured I’d see what the Bible says about migraines. I found some Psalms that offer a little guidance, though I do not believe anyone in biblical times understood migraines (see Hildegard of Bingen for a possible medieval view of migraines). They were probably thought to be demons within a person.

(Today, I will use a translation of the Bible called The Message, which is a translation of the Bible in contemporary English by Eugene H. Peterson. It can be quite a wonderful translation for understanding the Bible.)

Psalm 56 is David’s psalm asking God for deliverance from his enemies and his declaration of confidence that God will act to bring that deliverance. If you think of a migraine as a battle, this Psalm applies, and migraines are an intense battle. Psalm 56:8 says, “You’ve kept track of my every toss and turn through the sleepless nights, each tear entered in your ledger, each ache written in your book.” Yesterday, I hadn’t been running from enemies seeking to take my life as was David, nor was I lying awake crying out to God for deliverance from oppression or violence. But I was lying awake for quite a while last night trying to fall asleep, as I have many times before, asking God to bring deliverance from these headaches and sickness. Psalm 56:8 is one that can speak to someone with migraines. Every toss and turn I’ve made all these years, every sleepless night, every tear I’ve shed, every agonizing plea for God to heal and deliver; every headache, stomachache, nerve ache, and body ache—God knows, and God cares.

Think about this: God keeps track of our sufferings because it matters to him. He knows everything we’re going through and how it specifically and intimately affects us. Every physical, emotional, and spiritual misery we feel is laid out before him. He knows, and he cares. David knew this to be true. That’s why he can declare in verse 9 that “this I know, that God is for me.” Later in verse 11, he sings, “in God I trust; I shall not be afraid.”

The pain and misery I feel with my migraines may try to convince me that God has forsaken me. The pain and misery we feel may try to deceive us into thinking that we cannot always depend on God, but we cannot give in to those lies. God is always present, always aware, and always cares for what his people are going through. Because this is true of God, I can trust him as I continue to pray for healing. I can hold firm to his promise that he is for me and will bring me deliverance from the pain (whether physical, emotional, or spiritual) in my life. He will answer my plea. It may be today or next Tuesday or the day I stand before Him in heaven, but deliverance is coming—physical, emotional, and spiritual. So, when you find yourself tossing and turning, turn to God. When your tears flow, let Him collect them. When your aches become more than you can bear, cry out to God, who listens, cares, and answers. I have often done this, especially with the worst of my migraines, and while it may take strong medicines to give me relief, I know that, ultimately, that relief is because of God.


Snow

In the movie White Christmas, the main characters are on a train heading for Vermont, and they sing “Snow” by Irving Berlin:

Snow, snow, snow, snow, snow
It won’t be long before we’ll all be there with snow
Snow
I want to wash my hands, my face and hair with snow

Snow
I long to clear a path and lift a spade of snow
Snow
Oh, to see a great big man entirely made of snow

Where it’s snowing
All winter through
That’s where I want to be
Snowball throwing
That’s what I’ll do
How I’m longing to ski
Through the

Snow
Those glist’ning houses that seem to be built of snow
Snow
Oh, to see a mountain covered with a quilt of snow

What is Christmas with no snow
No white Christmas with no snow
Snow
I’ll soon be there with snow
I’ll wash my hair with snow
And with a spade of snow
I’ll build a man that’s made of snow
I’d love to stay up with you but I recommend a little shuteye
Go to sleep
And dream
Of snow.


When they get to Vermont, there is no snow to be seen. If they arrived in Vermont today, they’d find plenty of snow. We got our first major snowfall last night. Where I live, we received 3-4” of snow. By the time I woke up, the snow had mainly stopped, and we were getting freezing rain. When the sun rises, that freezing rain is expected to turn into regular rain which is supposed to last for the rest of the morning.

I wish I could just stay in and enjoy the scenery, but I need to run to the grocery store. I hate grocery shopping the day before Thanksgiving, but I wasn’t able to do it yesterday. I was in the grocery store when I developed a terrible migraine, and I just went to check out with the few items I’d already picked up. My headache remained for tye rest of the day and night, and I woke up with it again this morning. However, I’m hoping that it will be better by the time they’ve plowed my parking lot, and I am able to go to the grocery store.


TGIF

I am so glad that it’s Friday. For the past two days, I’ve had a really bad migraine. The weather has suddenly “warmed up,” and I think the change in temperature has triggered my migraine. I had to go home early from work both days, so I’m particularly glad that today is a work from home day. Thankfully, my headache seems better this morning, and I hope that will continue. I’m also glad that I don’t have a lot of work to do today.


Sick Day

I’m still feeling crappy. I felt better yesterday than I did on Saturday, but I’m still not feeling 100 percent (or even 75 percent). I’m going to stay home today and continue to rest and keep hydrated. For several different reasons, I have to go back to work tomorrow, so I hope more rest and some cold medicine will help me feel better before tomorrow morning. But, for today, I plan on keeping comfortable on my couch.


I Have a Cold

Heal me, O Lord, and I shall be healed;
Save me, and I shall be saved,
For You
are my praise.

—Jeremiah 17:14

I’ve had a cold since I got back home from my conference. I feel awful and not much like writing an inspirational post today. I hope you are all well and have had a good weekend.


Rough

I woke up yesterday with nausea and a bad headache. The nausea went away but the headache wouldn’t. I thought that maybe the headache would be my only negative reaction to taking the Covid vaccine. Then around 3 pm, the fever, chills, and body aches began. I was absolutely miserable. I tried to sleep some, but that didn’t help. I ended up going to bed around 7:30 last night. I woke around 10 pm still feeling awful, and eventually, I was able to fall asleep again. About 1 am, I woke up covered in sweat. My fever seemed to have finally broke. Eventually, I was able to go back to sleep, and I slept until my alarm went off at 5 am. I still have a headache but thankfully, no fever. The other times I’ve had a reaction, it lasted a full 24 hours, but this time, I think I got away with only about ten hours of being sick.


Sick Day

I planned a sick day for today because I got my Covid vaccine yesterday. In the past, I have had fairly rough reactions to the vaccine for about 24-36 hours, but then I’m fine. I’d rather have a day feeling like crap than to have Covid. So far, I have an intense headache, am nauseated, and my arm hurts where I got the shot, but I have not had a fever. In the past, I’ve always had a fever for about a 24 hour period beginning about 12 hours after the shot. This one may be different because in the past, I’ve always taken the Pfizer vaccine, but this time, only the Moderna vaccine was available. So, we’ll see.

Isabella woke me up to feed her at 5 am when my alarm usually goes off. I decided that I needed to eat breakfast, and then, I might just go back to bed.


More Shots

First things first, I did not want to get up this morning. Isabella woke me at 4 am, and after she repeatedly tapped my shoulder with her paw, I got up and fed her. I had every intention of going back to bed, but I was as hungry as I suspect she was (even though she always has dry food). Anyway, I made some toast and a cup of tea for breakfast and sat down to watch the new episode of Star Trek: Lower Decks.

Second thing, I had my Botox treatment with the new person yesterday. She was very nice, but I miss my former neurologist. The new one was not as quick and efficient as my old one. When my previous neurologist did the Botox injection, she was quick and it felt like just a few tiny pricks (38 to be exact). Now that I’ve started the injections again, they went back down to 31. The new person was much slower and thus the procedure was much more painful. I just hope it was worth it.

Finally, I go this morning to my regular doctor’s office for my influenza and Covid vaccines. I never have much of a reaction to the flu shot except a sore arm. However, I tend to react badly the next day to the Covid vaccine. I run a fever, get chills, and have body aches for about 24 hours. I should wake up feeling fine by Saturday morning, but I dread tomorrow. Hopefully, I won’t react too badly to this current vaccine. Nevertheless, I’ve taken tomorrow off work as a precaution.


Botox

About a year ago, my neurologist and I decided I should take a break from the Botox injections I was getting every three months for my migraines. She said that sometimes the Botox needs to stop for a while and later started up to give the treatment a reset. I had an appointment for my first Botox injections as part of this new round of treatments. However, the Headache Clinic called yesterday and rescheduled for today. I was ok with this, but disappointed because I was supposed to see my neurologist, who is moving to another state, for the last time. She had helped me so much and I wanted to tell her goodbye. When they rescheduled my appointment, I was scheduled to see someone else. I hope this new person is as good as my neurologist at giving the injections quickly and efficiently.

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Rough Day 🤕

I had a terrible migraine yesterday. It had woken me several times in the night, but I went into work anyway. I had my regular class to teach, but as soon as my class was over, I went home. I spent the rest of the day in as much darkness and quiet as possible. I’m not sure what brought on this migraine, but it could have been partly because of how tired I’ve been from the past few weeks. I’m feeling better this morning, though I still have a minor headache. I have a ton of work to do today, so I’m going to work. Usually, if I can keep busy enough, I can hold off the worst of the pain. It’s when I have nothing to do, or dealing with annoying people, that the pain gets out of hand.