Monthly Archives: June 2014

Verge

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Verge
By Mark Doty

A month at least before the bloom
and already five bare-limbed cherries
by the highway ringed in a haze
of incipient fire
—middle of the afternoon,
a faint pink-bronze glow. Some things
wear their becoming:
the night we walked,
nearly strangers, from a fevered party
to the corner where you’d left your motorcycle,
afraid some rough wind might knock it to the curb,
you stood on the other side
of the upright machine, other side
of what would be us, and tilted your head
toward me over the wet leather seat
while you strapped your helmet on,
engineer boots firm on the black pavement.

Did we guess we’d taken the party’s fire with us,
somewhere behind us that dim apartment
cooling around its core like a stone?
Can you know, when you’re not even a bud
but a possibility poised at some brink?

Of course we couldn’t see ourselves,
though love’s the template and rehearsal
of all being, something coming to happen
where nothing was…
But just now
I thought of a troubled corona of new color,
visible echo, and wondered if anyone
driving in the departing gust and spatter
on Seventh Avenue might have seen
the cloud breathed out around us
as if we were a pair
of—could it be?—soon-to-flower trees.

About This Poem

“Often we don’t seem to know when something new—maybe something major—is beginning. ‘Falling in love’ is, in truth, a recognition of something that’s already happened; when you know you’re in love, you’ve already arrived there. But can you ever tell when you’re just on the brink of something exhilarating, disruptive, lovely?”
—Mark Doty

I think Doty hits the nail on the head. You never know when you are on the brink of something, whether it is exhilarating, disruptive, or lovely. Sometimes it takes time to realize where a relationship is going; sometimes you might know from the beginning; and other times the journey can be incredibly confusing.

About Mark Doty

Author of several volumes of poetry and two major memoirs, Mark Doty, winner of the National Book Award for poetry, is one of the most celebrated American poets to emerge from the 1980s and 1990s. Doty helped bring the AIDS narrative and the experiences of gay men to a wider audience through emotionally resonant stories, a richly stylized poetic voice, and poems characterized by brilliant language and a polished surface. His work universalizes themes of loss, mortality, and renewal.

Doty writes poems of sumptuous detail and imagery while at the same time embracing emotionally raw subjects such as mortality and loss. His poems also explore art, beauty, and beauty’s surface, as well as the flaw, the wound, and the limit.

Doty is among the most prominent gay poets of his generation, and he has earned distinction as an AIDS memoirist. He has also managed to transcend the category “gay poet” and to find a wide audience and commercial success. As Robert Martin suggests, if Doty’s work endures, it will be in part “because he has understood the need both to record the suffering of AIDS and the desire for human gestures to transcend all loss and to write in a form at once delicate and powerful.”


Cruising the Western Caribbean, Part I

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We first set out from New Orleans, and looking around us in the terminal, I knew this would be a ship filled with hot guys. They were literally everywhere one looked, but since technically, you are not supposed to take pictures within the terminal, I can’t post any on here. As soon as we boarded the ship, we went to the state room and then decided to sit at the bar and have a drink.

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I don’t remember what this drink was called, but it was delicious. It was supposed to be the welcome aboard drink. Looking around the Atrium Bar, I could tell that I was going to be like a kid in a candy store with all the eye candy.

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The eye candy was all around, above and in front. The DJ in the bar was a super got guy from Hungary (?). After seeing the international crew on this ship, I’ve decided that I am going to have to visit Eastern Europe some day. They are some of the hottest men I have ever seen.

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The first day on the ship was fun, but the motion of the ship turning and rocking back and forth as it twisted through the Mississippi River Delta to the Gulf of Mexico was a bit rough for someone like me who has never been on a cruise before, but after the first night’s sleep, I was acclimated and did fine for the most part.

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The second day on the ship was a day at sea as we sailed toward Progresso. A day at sea meant being able to sit around, have fruity cocktails and watch nearly naked hot men walk by and play in the pool. I also spent a little time on the Serenity Deck getting some sun. The Serenity Deck was nice because everyone had to be 21 and older. There were at least four senior classes on our cruise, and it was best to avoid them as much as possible. Drunk teenagers can make nice eye candy, but they get a bit annoying after a while. Besides, the Serenity Deck had it’s own more mature eye candy.

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Docking in Progresso on Wednesday meant I was going to get to see the one thing I wanted to visit on this cruise: Chichen Itza. I wrote about this ancient Mayan city last week. Sadly, I missed Mike from Random Thoughts In My Life by one day. He had been there on Tuesday. I’d have loved to have met Mike, a fellow teacher, and his partner. After a two hour informative bus ride there, we arrived at the spectacular ruins. It was hot and humid, but I was truly in awe of the magnificence of the site, and I will discuss more about it on Wednesday, as this post is a bit long already.

Just a note, all the pictures in this post, with the exception of the top picture, are pictures taken by me.


Returning Home

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Our cruise should have docked in New Orleans around 8am yesterday morning. I couldn’t think of a better post about coming home then the Parable of the Prodigal Son.

The Parable of the Prodigal Son

And he said, “There was a man who had two sons. And the younger of them said to his father, ‘Father, give me the share of property that is coming to me.’ And he divided his property between them. Not many days later, the younger son gathered all he had and took a journey into a far country, and there he squandered his property in reckless living. And when he had spent everything, a severe famine arose in that country, and he began to be in need. So he went and hired himself out to one of the citizens of that country, who sent him into his fields to feed pigs. And he was longing to be fed with the pods that the pigs ate, and no one gave him anything.
“But when he came to himself, he said, ‘How many of my father’s hired servants have more than enough bread, but I perish here with hunger! I will arise and go to my father, and I will say to him, “Father, I have sinned against heaven and before you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son. Treat me as one of your hired servants.”‘ And he arose and came to his father. But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and felt compassion, and ran andembraced him and kissed him. And the son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and before you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.’ But the father said to his servants, ‘Bring quickly the best robe, and put it on him, and put a ring on his hand, and shoes on his feet. And bring the fattened calf and kill it, and let us eat and celebrate. For this my son was dead, and is alive again; he was lost, and is found.’ And they began to celebrate.
“Now his older son was in the field, and as he came and drew near to the house, he heard music and dancing. And he called one of the servants and asked what these things meant. And he said to him, ‘Your brother has come, and your father has killed the fattened calf, because he has received him back safe and sound.’ But he was angry and refused to go in. His father came out and entreated him, but he answered his father, ‘Look, these many years I have served you, and I never disobeyed your command, yet you never gave me a young goat, that I might celebrate with my friends. But when this son of yours came, who has devoured your property with prostitutes, you killed the fattened calf for him!’ And he said to him, ‘Son, you are always with me, and all that is mine is yours. It was fitting to celebrate and be glad, for this your brother was dead, and is alive; he was lost, and is found.'”
Luke 15:11-32