Monthly Archives: October 2015

Sleeping In 

  
It has been an incredibly busy week getting settle into my new place, and while I’m not completely settled yet, I don’t have any appointments tomorrow. I can just sleep in and enjoy my new and very comfortable mattress that was delivered yesterday. The only thing that I do need to do is walk over to the post office and pick up my keys to my p.o. box. When I paid for it, the keys that I was given didn’t work, so they had to rekey it. I seriously doubt I’ll have any mail, but you never know.

Every time I have ever moved into a new place, I forget how much there is to do. There is even more when you pack light and do it all yourself. I never realize how many unexpected expenses there are when moving to a new place. It didn’t help that I had a mishap on the way up and was delayed a day, which actually added the expense of two extra nights because even though I cancelled my reservation at the hotel I’d planned to stay at the first night, it was after the 24 hour deadline for cancellations. I’ll get reimbursed for most of my expenses, but I’m not sure when I will get that reimbursement.

Moving is also very stressful. I’m in a new place far away from anything that is familiar to me. Thank goodness for Apple Maps. It’s told me where grocery stores and mattress stores and various other stores I needed were. It’s nic for anything that makes this process easier.


Furniture 

  
First off, since neither FedEx or UPS would bring my deliveries up to my apartment, I had to carry them all up the stairs. That really pissed me off. Anyway, I got it all up to my apartment and then began the task of assembling everything. With a few short breaks here and there I got all but one piece put together. My hands are so sore though that I can barely type, in fact it hurts quite a bit. It really was a busy day. I can’t wait for my new mattress to arrive today. I’ll probably just make up the bed, strip naked, and snuggle in for a nap.


Busy

  
I had a busy day yesterday and night last night. It was the first business day since I’d arrived so there was lots to do. Today should be busy too. I’m having cable and Internet installed. Plus, most of my furniture is scheduled to arrive, so I’ll be busy setting it up.


October

  
October
By Helen Hunt Jackson

Bending above the spicy woods which blaze,
Arch skies so blue they flash, and hold the sun
Immeasurably far; the waters run
Too slow, so freighted are the river-ways
With gold of elms and birches from the maze
Of forests. Chestnuts, clicking one by one,
Escape from satin burs; her fringes done,
The gentian spreads them out in sunny days,
And, like late revelers at dawn, the chance
Of one sweet, mad, last hour, all things assail,
And conquering, flush and spin; while, to enhance
The spell, by sunset door, wrapped in a veil
Of red and purple mists, the summer, pale,
Steals back alone for one more song and dance.

The picture above is not of the best quality because it was taken by me with my phone through my kitchen window. (My phone is my only internet right now.) This really is the view from my kitchen. The view from my balcony is just as beautiful. I feel like I moved into a postcard.
PS Our friend JiEL was able to enhance to enhance the picture above to give it some truer color. The window pains had muted the colors a bit.


Getting Settled 

  
Moving would be a lot more fun if these guys had been there to help, but as it is I’m just taking it slow, bringing a few things in at a time. It’s a lot of work to move into a second floor apartment all by yourself. Most of my furniture should be delivered on Wednesday and Thursday. I’m not sure when the cable will be installed but hopefully soon (I might go crazy without TV and Internet). I have to call them back today, assuming they aren’t closed for Columbus Day. I hope that by this time next week, I’ll be settled in, since a week from today is my official start date at my new job.


Boasting About Tomorrow 

  

Come now, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go into such and such a town and spend a year there and trade and make a profit”-yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring. What is your life?

For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes. Instead you ought to say, “If the Lord wills, we will live and do this or that.” As it is, you boast in your arrogance. All such boasting is evil. So whoever knows the right thing to do and fails to do it, for him it is sin.  James 4:13-17

There is so much depth to these five verses. In the big picture, do we include God in all of our plans? Do we include him in our career or educational plans? Do we pray about the path He wants us to take? When we make plans and exclude God, no matter what the plans are, it is as if we are boasting in our own abilities.

Verses 13 and 14 refer to making future plans for prosperity without consulting God. Even if the plans are honorable and righteous, God may have other ideas. Our lives are but a blink of God’s eye, “a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes.” God wants us to consult with Him for all plans.  

At the first of last week, I boasted about how far I’d get each day on my journey to Vermont. However, God had other plans. I had not planned on hitting something in the road, puncturing my fuel tank, and being stranded in Knoxville for a few days, but that’s what happened. It actually only delayed my arrival by one day, but I was fortunate on two fronts. First, I was fortunate that I was not hirt in the accident and that no severe damage was done to my car. Second, it apparently rained most of the day yesterday in Vermont and it would have been miserable trying to move things into the apartment. In most things, we can find a silver lining, if we try.

I plan ahead. If I do not have the next step or two thought out before I get to them, I feel behind and unorganized. Of course, just because we plan doesn’t mean things will actually go as planned. God decides what will and will not happen. Ever since I gave Him full rights to my life, I cannot seem to plan anything too far in advance. He is the ultimate schedule shifter. James notes, “you do not know what tomorrow will bring.” I have to remind myself of this. Life throws sudden changes at you. Yes, I still plan ahead to the best of my ability, but I now make flexible plans instead of rigid ones. This is one way I submit my life to God, by giving Him free reign to jumble my schedule. In the end, I trust God has a better idea of what I should do with my life than I do since He sees the entire picture.

I remind myself that God has a plan for me in my prayers. I begin by asking God to forgive me of my sins, then I ask Him to guide me down the path He has chosen for me before asking Him to bless my family and friends. I pray for guidance down the path God has chosen for me, because I know it is not an easy path. In Matthew 7:13-14, Jesus says, “Enter by the narrow gate. For the gate is wide and the way is easy that leads to destruction, and those who enter by it are many. For the gate is narrow and the way is hard that leads to life, and those who find it are few.”

I’ve learned to use verse 15 in all planning. “If the Lord wills, we will live and do this or that.” There is so much each of us wants to do with what time we have left in our lives, right? Personally, I would love to travel to Europe again, write a book, get in better shape, and be healthier. With each thing I want do to, I pray about it and say, “Lord, if it is Your will that I do this, then I will do it.”

Psalm 37:4 states: Delight yourself in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart. This is a Scripture of hope. We think, “I love the Lord and so He will give me whatever my heart desires.” That sounds great and all, but what about this: if we love the Lord and become very close and intimate with Him, very soon His desires become the desire of our hearts. Ask the Lord if your desire is His will and you may find that His will truly becomes your desire.

Verses 16-17 remind us that boasting in our arrogance is evil, and goes on to say that if we know the right thing to do and fail to do it, we are sinning. If the Lord places something upon your heart, and you do something else instead, verse 17 tells us that it is sin. In 2 Corinthians 1:12, Paul writes, “For our boast is this, the testimony of our conscience, that we behaved in the world with simplicity and godly sincerity, not by earthly wisdom but by the grace of God, and supremely so toward you.”

Boast in the Lord and proclaim to everyone: “My God has blessed me abundantly, and He directs my path.” In Matthew 5:6, Jesus said: “Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.” There is satisfaction in doing God’s will. To actually do good is filling food. The more we eat the keener our appetite becomes. Dissatisfaction is a sure sign that we are not eagerly doing the will of God. It is a symptom of spiritual immaturity. The only way to discover the point of Christ’s teaching is to practice it. The only way to godly contentment is to hunger and thirst after righteousness.


Moment of Zen: Arriving 

  
While it’s the end of a long journey, it’s the beginning of a new chapter in my life.


Driving 

  

I drove all day as soon as I got my car and arrived in Harrisburg, Pennsylvania. There was no way I could safely make it any further. I’ll leave first thing in the morning and drive the final 7.5 hours to my new apartment.

I’ll post my Moment of Zen later today.


Knoxville 

  
So, my insurance company got me a rental car, and it looks like my car will hopefully be fixed tomorrow. With a badass SUV that they gave me to drive, I decided to go see what fun could be had in Knoxville. By fun, I’m not talking about sights, but I thought I’d check out the local gay scene.

Apparently, there are three gay bars in Knoxville. One looked really promising as they were having a free Texas Hold ‘Em tournament last night. Winner got $100. I used to play poker every Friday night with a group of friends when I was in graduate school, so I decided I’d check it out. I got to the bar and ordered a drink to wait for the tournament to start. The crowd was mostly older men. I have nothing against older guys, but it’s nice when they are friendly. While I tried to engage a few, it was obvious that I was an outsider and not that welcomed. The guys and gals there to play poker were obviously very serious about it. I was hoping for some fun and socializing. I figured out pretty quickly that this was not going to be the case. So I gave up on the place and left. With it being a Thursday night, I doubted that the other two gay bars would be much fun either. If this was New Orleans, something is usually happening every night, but this is Knoxville not New Orleans, so I decided to head back to the hotel to watch How to Get Away with Murder.

I have a confession here, I saw a sign for an adult store on my way back to my hotel and decided to check it out and see if they had anything fun. I did find a nice new toy (as luck would have it they were having a sale and the cashier gave a 20% off coupon to use), and my new toy is the perfect size for some play. So while I didn’t have fun playing poker because it looked a bit lame, I had a lot of fun with my new toy. So I amused myself and then went on to bed.

I expect that my car will not be ready until tomorrow afternoon, so I will go into downtown Knoxville and see some of the sights. Hopefully I can get back on the road tomorrow and maybe make it to Virginia.


Shit Happens 

  

First things first, I’m ok, sadly my car is not. On I-40 just outside of Knoxville, TN, I hit some large piece of metal (well about the size of my head) in the road. It punctured my gas tank. I had no choice as I was flanked by semi trucks. Luckily, no sparks were present, and I was able to pull off to the side of the road and call 911. The local fire department arrived and neutralized the gas and my car was towed to a local garage. The tow truck was kind enough to take me to a hotel. So for at least tonight I’m stuck in Lenoir City, Tennessee, in a hotel. Hopefully, they can get a new fuel tank quickly and get it installed today, and I can be back on my way. If they have the part, I was told they’ll move quickly, assuming the only damage was the fuel tank. If not, my insurance company will send me a rental car to use until my car is fixed but it would still mean I’m stuck in Lenoir City, Tennessee. Maybe I can explore some of nearby Knoxville.

I had to cancel my hotel reservations in Virginia and Albany. Hopefully, the hotel in Albany will not charge me as I cancelled a day in advance. My Virginia hotel was not as kind. They are charging me regardless because I did not cancel 24 hours in advance. They didn’t care that I had an accident.

On the bright side, there were no sparks and my car did not blow up with or without me in it. This is just one of those things that happens and it could have been far worse. I did enough crying and freaking out yesterday, I am going to try and remain calm. I will get to Vermont, come Hell or high water.

UPDATE (10am EST): The needed part was found in Knoxville and unless there is more extensive damage than they initially thought, my car will be ready tomorrow. The insurance company is sending a rental car to let me use until the car is ready. It means I’m stuck at the hotel until 4pm when they will deliver the car.