Yesterday was a very emotional day for me, and not much else makes an emotional day worse than a phone call from my mother. None of it is something I want to discuss, but I also don’t feel like talking about anything else. Don’t worry, it wasn’t anything really bad, but I was feeling pretty drained last night. I got home, ate dinner, talked to a friend on the phone, my mother called, and then, took a Xanax for my anxiety before laying on the couch to watch Star Trek, which is always good for my mental health. I just needed to get recentered and relax.
I began my life in the South and for five years lived as a closeted teacher, but am now making a new life for myself as an oral historian in New England. I think my life will work out the way it was always meant to be. That doesn't mean there won't be ups and downs; that's all part of life. It means I just have to be patient. I feel like October 7, 2015 is my new birthday. It's a beginning filled with great hope. It's a second chance to live my life…not anyone else's.
My profile picture is "David and Me," 2001 painting by artist Steve Walker. It happens to be one of my favorite modern gay art pieces.
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I suggest you do what my partner (we have been together 26 years) does with his controlling mother. We know what her cell number is and my partner doesn’t answer it unless he is up for the stress of a conversation with her. Most times, we just let it ring. It’s a matter of being in control of your own life and choosing when you will engage.
I know this is what I should do, but I’m always afraid it’s an emergency or that something has happened to someone in my family. That actually causes me even more stress. For me, it seems like a no win situation.
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Joe
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August 25th, 2022 at 11:35 am
Sending lots of love and healing vibes.
August 25th, 2022 at 11:35 am
I suggest you do what my partner (we have been together 26 years) does with his controlling mother. We know what her cell number is and my partner doesn’t answer it unless he is up for the stress of a conversation with her. Most times, we just let it ring. It’s a matter of being in control of your own life and choosing when you will engage.
August 25th, 2022 at 6:03 pm
I know this is what I should do, but I’m always afraid it’s an emergency or that something has happened to someone in my family. That actually causes me even more stress. For me, it seems like a no win situation.
August 25th, 2022 at 6:37 pm
You don’t live close by so you are not a key player in resolving any real emergency. So be good to yourself and take my advice, you only get one life.
August 25th, 2022 at 6:43 pm
That’s something I really needed to hear.