
Monthly Archives: August 2024
Irritable š

I try to be a pleasant, congenial person with a smile on my face, even when I donāt feel it. Sometimes, though, I find it difficult to keep up an affable faƧade when Iām not really feeling it. Usually, the irritability I canāt hide is because of not feeling well. For the past week, my migraines have been a bit worse than usual. Iām not for sure if itās the seemingly ever changing weather or wildfire smoke passing over Vermont. Since Sunday, our air quality has been worsening.
Then again, my irritability may be because Iām just fed up with hearing people complain. Some people are going to constantly complain and nothing will satisfy them. This is especially true when a person is a martyr narcissist, i.e., a person who constantly acts as if their every action is a personal sacrifice. People like this donāt want their complaints satisfied because they canāt keep receiving the sympathy they crave. Then, there are those people who are just miserable human beings who want others to suffer the way they do, even when they arenāt actually suffering.
Also, politics in the United States right now are fucking annoying, and if I watch even ten minutes of the news, I canāt get away from it fast enough. Why canāt politicians be positive in their campaigning instead of always negative? I think partly because anger drives people to vote, and the angrier a politician can make voters by denigrating their opponents the more likely theyāll get their votes. Too many Americans are voting out of hate and fear instead of voting for peace and hope.
Itās probably the combination of all three that have me so irritable today. Thank God, Iām working from home today and wonāt have to deal with people. Iām not sure I could put a smile on my face today. Yesterday, I just buried my head in a project and tried to ignore everything else. I think I just need some alone time to recenter and reset.
Waking Up

Iām awake this morning, but I donāt want to be. This is one day I wish Isabella would have let me sleep a bit longer. I went to bed a little early last night, but I wish I had gone to bed even earlier. Iāve been readingĀ Stranger on the ShoreĀ by Josh Lanyon,Ā and I just donāt want to put it down and go to sleep at night. Iāve actually read this book before, and obviously, I really enjoyed it the first time. Itās been a while since Iāve read it, so while I remember the outcome of the book, there are little details I had forgotten about. Itās a mystery, and I find it fun to rediscover the clues leading up to solving the mystery. When I read a mystery the first time, I enjoy trying to solve the mystery before itās revealed in the book, but on a reread, I enjoy recognizing all the clues along the way.
Hereās your Isabella pic of the week:

Sheās always watching. š
A Better Day

Nina Simoneās āFeeling Goodā was stuck in my head this morning:
It’s a new dawn
It’s a new dayā¦
And I’m feeling good
Over the past few days, I have had a really bad migraine. The pain and nausea on Monday were enough to keep me home from work. I was feeling some better yesterday morning, so I went back to work, but mainly it was because I had some work I needed to do and a meeting in the afternoon.
Today, Iām again feeling better, but I still have a bit of a headache. Today is another busy day. I have a dental cleaning appointment this morning and two meetings this afternoon. Yesterday was a busy day, and it looks like today will be too.
I hope everyoneās week is going well!
Acceptance

Acceptance
By Robert Frost
When the spent sun throws up its rays on cloud
And goes down burning into the gulf below,
No voice in nature is heard to cry aloud
At what has happened. Birds, at least, must know
It is the change to darkness in the sky.
Murmuring something quiet in its breast,
One bird begins to close a faded eye;
Or overtaken too far from its nest,
Hurrying low above the grove, some waif
Swoops just in time to his remembered tree.
At most he thinks or twitters softly, āSafe!
Now let the night be dark for all of me.
Let the night be too dark for me to see
Into the future. Let what will be be.ā
About this Poem
āAcceptanceā appears in Robert Frostās poetry collection, West-Running Brook (Henry Holt and Company, 1928). In his article, āThe Use of Irony in Robert Frost,ā author, professor of English, and director of graduate studies at the University of South Carolina, Donald J. Greiner wrote: āThe sonnet āAcceptanceā deals entirely with this balance of trust and mistrust, but its tone seems much darker than that of the other poems of ironic acceptance. [ā¦] The bird twitters āsafe,ā but Frost shows that he does not consider this any great victory when he qualifies āsafeā with āat most.ā This bird strikes no boastful pose, utters no bragging words; āat mostā it notes to itself that it is safe. But the irony comes from the rest of its statement. [ā¦] As in so many of Frostās poems, the fear stems from the recognition that some unknown force is at work in the universe. The title āAcceptanceā is almost bitterly ironic, for the bird accepts only because it can do nothing else. Its safety is a night-by-night struggle, and its only defense against overwhelming fear is acceptance of its predicament.ā
About the Poet
One of the most celebrated figures in American poetry, Robert Frost was the author of numerous poetry collections, including New Hampshire (Henry Holt and Company, 1923). Born in San Francisco in 1874, he lived and taught for many years in Massachusetts and Vermont. He died in Boston in 1963.
Ugh!

Iām not up to writing much today. Iām not even sure Iām up to going to work today. I slept later than usual this morning waking up with a headache and a bit nauseated. If I start feeling better after Iāve had breakfast, Iāll go to work, otherwise, Iāll go back to bed.












