Monthly Archives: September 2025

Reflections and Remembrance

I’m not going to dwell on politics or my health today—just two quick statements on both.

First, politics. I don’t think political violence should ever happen in the United States or anywhere else. Sadly, it happens far too often as it is, though thankfully, more often than not, it’s unsuccessful (and sometimes staged—ears just don’t grow back). The United States is gripped with a political fervor that seems rooted in hate, violence, cruelty, and greed. What’s most troubling is that most of the political violence, both successful and unsuccessful, has been against those who themselves have not been calling for it. Infer what you want from what I’ve said.

While I’m not going to change what I wrote above, I think it came off as more offensive than it should have. I do not meant to blame a victim for what happened, but I firmly believe that rhetoric from the far left and the far right have caused this extreme polarization that is tearing apart our democracy. Charlie Kirk, no matter how awful the things he might have said were, he did not deserve to be murdered. Also, the conspiracy theory part, while it is my belief that it was at least portrayed much worse than it was for political gain, whatever else was behind it is not known.

Second, health. My Botox seemed to go really well yesterday. I liked the new provider I saw. We talked about how the treatment usually wears off for me around week ten of the twelve-week cycle. She’s going to try to convince my insurance to allow for treatments every ten weeks instead of every twelve. The woman who does scheduling for the Headache Clinic even set up my next two appointments with dates for both possibilities—ten weeks if it’s approved, twelve weeks if it’s not. That way I’ll have an appointment either way. Like my previous provider, she said if there’s ever a problem getting me in on time, to have them talk to her and she’ll adjust things to make sure it happens.

So, those weren’t exactly “two quick statements,” but I’ve said what I wanted to say on both topics.

On this day especially, I want to pause in remembrance of September 11. I think nearly all of us—maybe even all of us—remember where we were when we first heard the news. The confusion, and then the horrifying realization of what had actually happened, is something we’ll never forget. It’s been more than two decades, yet the memory of that morning—the shock, the grief, the uncertainty—still lingers deeply for so many of us. We remember the nearly 3,000 lives lost, the countless families forever changed, and the first responders who ran toward danger with courage and selflessness. We remember too how, in the days that followed, communities came together in ways that reminded us of our shared humanity and resilience. And it’s that spirit of unity, compassion, and strength that we especially need in today’s world.

May we all carry that spirit with us, today and always.


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Worth Every Shot

The day is finally here—Botox day. Every twelve weeks I go in for my migraine shots, and as I’ve mentioned before, the relief usually wears off around week ten. These last two weeks have been especially rough. Because my boss has been difficult about my back issues (though she’s been a bit more sympathetic the last few days—sort of), I haven’t wanted to ask to leave early for a migraine. I know I shouldn’t worry about that, but I also don’t want to cause further tension. So, I’ve mostly just suffered in silence.

Most people wouldn’t exactly look forward to 31–37 injections in one sitting—especially when they’re all over your head, neck, and shoulders. Honestly, though, it’s not that bad if the provider knows what they’re doing and keeps it quick and accurate. The only ones I truly dread are the shots in the back of my head; I’m told that’s because of the occipital nerve. It usually takes a couple of days before the relief sets in, but it’s worth every single poke.

If nothing else, it’s made me pretty fearless about other shots. When I got my monkeypox vaccine, the nurse warned me, “Everyone says this one really stings, so just bear with me.” After it was done, she looked surprised and said, “You didn’t even flinch.” I just smiled and told her, “Honey, when you endure 37 Botox shots to the head every three months, this is a piece of cake.”

I hope your week’s treating you kindly so far—hang in there, we’ll get through it together.


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The Dreams of the Dreamer

The Dreams of the Dreamer
By Georgia Douglas Johnson

The dreams of the dreamer
Are life-drops that pass
The break in the heart
To the soul’s hour-glass.

The songs of the singer
Are tones that repeat
The cry of the heart
‘Till it ceases to beat

About the Poem

Georgia Douglas Johnson’s The Dreams of the Dreamer is a brief but piercing meditation on the power and fragility of artistic expression. The poem likens dreams to “life-drops” trickling through “the soul’s hour-glass,” evoking both the preciousness of our inner visions and the inevitability of time’s passing. Songs, meanwhile, are cast as echoes of the heart’s cry—repetitions of human longing that endure until life itself is spent. The economy of Johnson’s language underscores the intensity of her theme: art is not incidental, but essential, even when born out of sorrow.

Johnson begins with the figure of the “dreamer.” Dreams, she says, are like “life-drops”—fragile and fleeting, but essential, like water to the body. These dreams fall through “the soul’s hour-glass,” suggesting both the inevitability of time and the slow draining away of what sustains us. Dreams here are not idle fantasies, but pieces of the self—hopes and desires that slip away as the heart breaks.

In the second stanza, Johnson turns to the “singer.” The singer’s art is not mere entertainment but a repetition of the heart’s cry. Music is presented as a translation of sorrow, carried outward in tones until the very last beat of life. Just as dreams are vital but fragile, songs are beautiful but born of pain.

Read in the context of the Harlem Renaissance, the poem reflects how art and creativity served as lifelines in the face of systemic racism and social limitation. Dreams and songs became vessels through which Black artists preserved dignity and expressed pain, hope, and resilience. Johnson, like her contemporaries, understood that creativity was both survival and resistance.

At the same time, the poem resonates deeply with the experience of many LGBTQ+ people. For generations, queer lives have been marked by hidden dreams and muted songs—hopes often confined by the fear of rejection or the demands of conformity. The imagery of “life-drops” slipping away through the heart’s breaks speaks to the quiet toll of living unseen or unaccepted, while the idea of the singer repeating the heart’s cry “’till it ceases to beat” captures how art has so often been the only place queer voices could safely exist. For LGBTQ+ readers, Johnson’s words may echo the endurance of self-expression in the face of silence, shame, or erasure. The poem’s beauty lies in its universality: it honors both the dreamer and the singer as figures whose inner truths cannot be contained, even when the world would rather they be quiet.

About the Poet

Georgia Douglas Johnson (1880–1966) was one of the most important Black female voices of the Harlem Renaissance. Though she lived much of her life in Washington, D.C., her poetry and plays brought her into the circle of leading Renaissance figures such as Langston Hughes and Countee Cullen. Johnson published four volumes of poetry and numerous plays, many of which grappled with themes of racial injustice, gender roles, and the inner struggles of Black life in America. Her home became a meeting place for writers, activists, and intellectuals, known as the “S Street Salon.” Despite the obstacles she faced as a woman and as an African American, Johnson’s poetry endures for its lyrical precision and emotional honesty, capturing the complex textures of longing, loss, and resilience.

Postscript: I have a lot of pictures of men in beds saved—some waiting in anticipation, some just waking up, some lying there wide-eyed, some alone, some with a partner. But none of them really felt like a dreamer. This one did. Something about the way he holds the bed linens, the calm on his face, the way he’s settled in—it just spoke of dreaming. Maybe you see that too, maybe you don’t. I could have picked someone daydreaming, but I kept coming back to this. Because while daydreams let us play with ideas, it’s in sleep that the truest longings surface, when our minds stop steering and let the dreams simply be. And maybe those are the real dreams of a dreamer.


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Monday Blues

It’s Monday, and I hate Mondays. I don’t think I’m alone in that, but it feels especially true for me today. Mondays always seem to hit harder when the schedule is stacked from start to finish, and this one is shaping up to be particularly exhausting. I’ve got classes to teach all morning and paperwork waiting for me all afternoon, which doesn’t leave much room to catch my breath.

To top it off, I woke up queasy, and the migraine that’s been dogging me for nearly a week is still hanging on. This kind of lingering migraine always seems to show up when I’m a week or two out from my next round of Botox injections. Sure enough, my next appointment is on Wednesday, and I’m counting down the days until I get some relief. Until then, it’s a matter of managing the pain as best I can and pushing through.

So yes, I’m not exactly starting this week at my best, but here we are—it’s Monday, whether I like it or not. Hopefully once I get through the busyness of today, the rest of the week will feel a little lighter.

I hope everyone else had a good weekend and that you’re off to a much better start to the week than I am. Here’s to surviving Monday together.


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In the Morning of Joy

He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more.

—Revelation 21:4

Today would have been the birthday of a dear friend who has passed away. Remembering him brings both gratitude for his life and sorrow for his absence. Birthdays of those we’ve lost remind us of how deeply they touched our lives, and they also stir reflection on all the others who are no longer with us—our family, our friends, and whole generations taken too soon.

I had been very close to this friend. He was the first person I felt I could tell anything to without fear of judgment. He encouraged me to be braver and more outgoing. I am still reserved by nature, but whenever I do put myself out there, I can still hear his encouragement in my ears. When he died, it nearly broke me. My friend Susan was a huge help in those days, but in the immediate aftermath, one of the things that truly sustained me was the hymn “In the Morning of Joy.” I clung to the hope that one day we would meet again in heaven—that he and my grandmama might be waiting for me. I’m not sure that’s exactly how heaven works, but that thought got me up in the mornings, carried me through the day, and helped me fall asleep through the tears at night.

But my grief also connects to something larger. A friend told me of a conversation with his uncle, who is my age. His uncle had seen a TikTok where a young gay man asked, “Where were all these hot gay DILFs when I was growing up?” The uncle replied, “Our generation is seeing gay men age for the first time ever, because 1) we are able to be out of the closet, so people are aware of our sexuality, and 2) the AIDS crisis is not taking us at 30 years old anymore.” That truth is staggering. We are the first generation to live openly enough, and long enough, to see ourselves grow older. But this gift is shadowed by the memory of those we lost—an entire generation of gay men taken too soon. To remember them is to carry both grief and gratitude: grief for lives cut short, and gratitude that their memory is not forgotten.

Scripture tells us, “The memory of the righteous is a blessing” (Proverbs 10:7). Those we have lost—friends, grandparents, lovers, mentors—leave us not just with sorrow but with blessings: their courage, their laughter, their wisdom, and their love. We carry them with us, and in that carrying, their light does not go out. The psalmist adds, “Precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of his saints” (Psalm 116:15). Death feels like a thief to us, but to God, it is the moment of welcoming His beloved children home. In God’s sight, even lives that seem unfinished are held in honor. And Jesus himself comforts us, “Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted” (Matthew 5:4). To mourn is to love deeply, and God meets us in our mourning, not always removing the pain, but walking with us through it.

And so we hold fast to the promise in Revelation: “He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more.” (Revelation 21:4). For those of us who remember friends gone too young, grandparents who shaped us, or brothers lost in the plague years, this is not just poetry—it is hope. It tells us that death does not have the last word, and that the separation we feel today will one day be healed.

This is why the refrain of “In the Morning of Joy” has always meant so much to me: “We’ll be gathered to glory, in the morning of joy.” That promise reminds me that there will be a day when we are reunited with our loved ones—that friends, family, and even the generation of gay men lost to the AIDS epidemic live eternally, and that in Christ, we will be gathered together again.

As we honor the birthdays of those who have passed, and as we remember both our personal losses and the staggering loss of a generation, may we hold fast to this truth: though absent now, one day we will be gathered together in glory, in the morning of joy.


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