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I began my life in the South and for five years lived as a closeted teacher, but am now making a new life for myself as an oral historian in New England. I think my life will work out the way it was always meant to be. That doesn't mean there won't be ups and downs; that's all part of life. It means I just have to be patient. I feel like October 7, 2015 is my new birthday. It's a beginning filled with great hope. It's a second chance to live my life…not anyone else's. My profile picture is "David and Me," 2001 painting by artist Steve Walker. It happens to be one of my favorite modern gay art pieces.

Exhausted

After a week and a half of teaching classes almost all day each day, I am exhausted. I taught three history classes yesterday morning and four English classes in the afternoon. I got about a 20 minute break for lunch. Last night, I’d have done almost anything for a foot massage. I’d been on my feet nearly the whole time. I always feel that I need to be standing to teach, and there is part of the lesson when I have to walk around guiding the students through the assignment they are given. I have my regular class this morning and one last make-up session for the series of classes I’ve been teaching. After today, the majority of my teaching for a few weeks will only be my regular class. Thank goodness, I am working from home tomorrow.


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Miscellaneous

First off, I had an appointment with my neurologist at the Headache Clinic yesterday. She’s moving away and is leaving the clinic, and I’d been trying to get in to see her before she leaves. She’s not sure who will replace her, but she said they found a doctor they want to hire who was very nice. However, she said she doesn’t know if they can convince him to take the job. She said they’ve more than once thought they found a great candidate only for them to be snatched up by someone else. We also talked about me restarting Botox treatments, so I will get to see her one more time before she leaves. Hopefully, the combination of the Qulipta that I’m currently taking and the Botox will help. The Botox helped before but when I developed trigeminal neuralgia (TN), it wasn’t as effective. Now that the TN is largely in remission, we are hoping the Botox will help again.

Second, today is my last day of marathon classes. I have classes every hour from 9 am to 4 pm. Since last Tuesday, I have taught more than two dozen classes. Those classes include my regular semester long class that meets on Tuesday and Thursday but also numerous English classes each day. The English class is the same class over and over, but I still have to prepare lectures for my regular class. Today, I’m addition to four English classes, I also have three history classes. It’s been an exhausting week and a half.

Finally, actually I don’t have a third thing. Everything else seems to be going fairly well. I haven’t had the time to keep up with emails and messages, but hopefully I can do that Friday while I’m working from home.


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De Profundis

De Profundis
By Dorothy Parker

Oh, is it, then, Utopian
To hope that I may meet a man
Who’ll not relate, in accents suave,
The tales of girls he used to have?

The poem today is short and sweet. (I don’t know that Dorothy Parker was ever “sweet” in her prose. It’s just an expression.) Dorothy Parker always goes straight to the point, and usually in a humorous way. A founding member of the Algonquin Round Table, Dorothy Parker’s work was known for its scathing wit and intellectual commentary. She may have used humor, but there is often a lot of truth in what she says. In this poem, she basically is saying: In a perfect world, I would meet a man who won’t tell me about his past lovers. We probably have all known people who are constantly comparing people to others in their past. We may have even had a boyfriend who constantly told us about his ex-lovers. While it’s good to know about someone’s past, we don’t need to hear them compare us to those who they have known in the past.

De Profundis is Latin: “from the depths.” De profundis often refers to Psalm 130, traditionally known as the De Profundis (“Out of the depths”), from its opening words in Latin. There are several works in literature titled “De Profundis,” several of which include more serious poetry. These include:

  • De Profundis (letter), an 1897 work written by Oscar Wilde during his imprisonment, in the form of a letter to Lord Alfred Douglas
  • “De Profundis,” a poem by Federico García Lorca, set to music in the first movement of Shostakovich’s Symphony No. 14
  • “De Profundis,” a 1998 poem by Regina Derieva
  • “De Profundis,” a poem by J. Slauerhoff in the 1928 collection Eldorado
  • “De Profundis”, a short story by Arthur Conan Doyle written in 1892
  • “AMERICA ’62: De Profundis,” a 2007 prose piece by Panos Ioannides
  • Suspiria de Profundis, a collection of essays by Thomas De Quincey

Appropriately, the watermark at the bottom of the photo above reads, “GAYS WITH STORIES.”


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Vermont Pride Parade 🏳️‍🌈

The Vermont Pride Parade was yesterday. Luckily, it only rained a small amount, not enough really for an umbrella unlike last year. There was the usual mix of oddness that has become a hallmark of Vermont. The Flynn Center (a Burlington theater) had a performance of their “Playing Field” horse. It would be difficult to explain, but you can go to this link to get an idea of what I’m talking about. A friend of mine said, “ It was totally weird but fitting!” I replied, “ If it’s weird, it’s always fitting in Vermont.” This is the same friend who when talking about the dating pool in Vermont said, “The odds are good, but the goods are odd.” It’s a perfect description for Vermont.

I always love seeing the various groups marching. There are politicians, drag queens, contingents from various colleges (the local Catholic college always has the most students), and various affirming religious congregations. Then there are the furries, Wiccans, medieval reenactors, etc. There was also a float with a stripper pole with different girls pole dancing for the crowd. As I said, the usual Vermont weirdness.

The local television stations also always march in the parade. One of the local meteorologists added a picture of the parade and it’s crowd for his Instagram story. I mention this because my friend and I are in the picture, though we are really small and blurry. If you’re able to zoom in, I circled us in purple. We are on the right side of the crowd. (The picture above is not part of the Vermont Parade, but the one below is.)


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Be Proud 🏳️‍🌈✝️🏳️‍🌈

I am acting with great boldness toward you; I have great pride in you; I am filled with comfort. In all our affliction, I am overflowing with joy.

—2 Corinthians 7:4

For those of us who were raised in a strict Christian environment, we had to learn not to hate ourselves and to accept who we are and our sexuality. Some Christians are opposed to the concept of LGBTQ+ pride. They feel LGBTQ+ people should be ashamed of who we are and any public celebration of LGBTQ+ sexuality is wrong. Those who reject us are those who are straying from the teachings of Jesus. I still believe in the teachings of Christ and believe that God created me just the way I am. I learned to accept myself and be proud of who I am. I am proud to be both gay and Christian.

Christians who know church history can identify with persecution. During the early years of the Christian church, Christians were put in prison and killed for their faith. The civil authorities in the Roman Empire were persecuting people for being Christian. Both Christianity and the LGBTQ+ community share a history of discrimination and persecution. Unfortunately, discrimination and persecution of LGBTQ+ people continue today, largely led by people claiming to be Christian. Some Christians do not understand how much they have in common with the LGBTQ+ community. Instead of working closely together to ensure their mutual human rights are respected, many Christians actively work to keep LGBTQ+ people from having the same rights other members of society enjoy.

LGBTQ+ pride promotes the self-affirmation, dignity, equality, and increased visibility of LGBTQ+ people. Pride, as opposed to shame and social stigma, is the predominant outlook that bolsters most LGBTQ+ rights movements. Ranging from solemn to carnivalesque, pride events are typically held during the month of June (or September if you are in Vermont). Some pride events include LGBTQ+ pride parades and marches, rallies, commemorations, community days, dance parties, and festivals. Pride may be considered one of the seven deadly sins, but there is nothing wrong with LGBTQ+ people having self-affirmation, dignity, equality, and increased visibility. In fact, God expects us to have pride, a pride that is justifiable and reasonable because it is based on what God has done for humanity. 1 Thessalonians 5:11 tells us to “comfort each other and build one another up.”

Hebrews 10:24-25 commands us, “And let us consider one another in order to stir up love and good works, not forsaking the assembling of ourselves together, as is the manner of some, but exhorting one another, and so much the more as you see the Day approaching.” Some LGBTQ+ people find pride to be one time of the year when they do not feel alone, isolated, cut off, rejected, hated, and despised. Pride helps LGBTQ+ people feel they are not a tiny, powerless minority group. Through pride, many LGBTQ+ people find a sense of belonging, a sense of being worthwhile. Society has long taught LGBTQ+ people to hate themselves. By celebrating pride, the LGBTQ+ community can start the long process of overcoming self-hate. Standing side-by-side with God, LGBTQ+ Christians are accepted, loved, connected, and made powerful by God. 

LGBTQ+ Christians can find meaning in pride. God wants LGBTQ+ people to stop hating and fearing themselves because those who live secret lives of pain are not able to fully celebrate their identity in Christ. We are told in 1 Corinthians 12:26, “And if one member suffers, all the members suffer with it; or if one member is honored, all the members rejoice with it.” Through LGBTQ+ pride, God calls LGBTQ+ Christians to help those in our community who suffer because when one of us suffers, we all suffer. Transgender people are suffering under new state laws across the country, and when there is even one unjust law against the LGBTQ+ community, it is a law against all of us. Pride helps bring us together as a community, so let’s take pride in the love and acceptance we provide for one another.


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