The other day, I applied for a job in Chicago. It would be a step up from my current job and would be at a prestigious library and museum. The only thing is that I only know two things about Chicago: I’ve seen the musical and my mother says it’s the murder capital of America. Actually, I know a few more things, such as the gay section is known as Boystown, and Chicago sits on Lake Michigan. Also, I read Boy Culture which takes place in Chicago not that I remember that much about Chicago from the book. I’ve also never lived in a big city before. So help me out here. What should I know about Chicago?
Also, I’m back in Connecticut today. Travel arrangements were a pain in the ass without a director, but I finally got them finalized. I’ll be driving much of tomorrow, but I will be spending the night in Connecticut before I drive home on Thursday. It’s going to be a long two days. I don’t mind driving, but I really don’t like driving by myself, especially early in the morning. I like to have someone to talk to as I drive. But being by myself, I’ll probably either listen to an audiobook or listen to NPR.
By Percy Bysshe Shelley
Is it that in some brighter sphere
We part from friends we meet with here?
Or do we see the Future pass
Over the Present’s dusky glass?
Or what is that that makes us seem
To patch up fragments of a dream,
Part of which comes true, and part
Beats and trembles in the heart?
Another Monday…What that entails, I’m not sure. I know it’s another day at work, but we are still without a director. I know that I have to plan a trip to Connecticut. It’s not as easy as it used to be when we had a director. I have to go through more people. I hope it all goes smoothly.
Our world is filled with events and situations that can cause great fear and anxiety. It’s easy to become overwhelmed and live imprisoned by fear. We are promised in God’s Word that he is faithful and will protect us (2 Thessalonians 3:3). God wants us to let go of fear and to live life to the fullest! (John 10:10) My family is in the path of Hurricane Nate, so I offer this prayer for safety.
Lord, I pray Your emotional, physical, and spiritual protection over my family. Keep evil far from them, and help them to trust You as their refuge and strength. I pray You will guard their minds from harmful instruction, and grant them discernment to recognize truth. I pray You will make them strong and courageous in the presence of danger, recognizing that You have overcome and will set right all injustice and wrong one day. Help them to find rest in Your shadow, as they live in the spiritual shelter You provide for them. Let them know that the only safe place is in Jesus, and that their home on earth is only temporary.
It’s been quite a week, and today is going to be a busy day. I have a plumber coming at 9am to fix the leak that I thought was fixed. Hopefully, he won’t take long. I have a class at 11. I’ve been taking a meditation class this week. It’s been pretty interesting. Once that s over with, I will probably be at the museum by myself the rest of the day.
Finally, I heard some good news yesterday. The provost told me yesterday that she’d write a new grant to fund my job, or talk to the CFO about making it part of the Museum budget. This is wonderful news as it means it is quite likely I will keep my job even after my grant is over. I’ve become an integral part of the Museum and they seem to have realized what an important role I play. I was very happy with the news.
Some of your wrote to me yesterday concerned because of my”Judgement Day” post. Well the short answer is that I’m okay. I went into HR, and they asked me about ten questions. Of the ten, I could answer four of them without saying, “No, not that I know of.” I was simply just kept out of the loop on whatever went on. I know three things now that I didn’t know before, but I had suspected these three things. It has to do with our audit. It has to do with money. And, I was never a part of it. HR may just think that I am a clueless dope now, but I really didn’t know anything they asked. I had not observed anything they asked about. Now we are expected to go on with business as usual. Well, without a boss, nothing is business as usual. One person commented that it was like a death in the family. In a way it is, but it’s a death no one wants to talk about. So I’m still largely clueless on specifics, but I have a general idea of what happened. Now we wait and see how it will be resolved.
The Wings of Daylight
by W. S. Merwin
Brightness appears showing us everything
it reveals the splendors it calls everything
but shows it to each of us alone
and only once and only to look at
not to touch or hold in our shadows
what we see is never what we touch
what we take turns out to be something else
what we see that one time departs untouched
while other shadows gather around us
the world’s shadows mingle with our own
we had forgotten them but they know us
they remember us as we always were
they were at home here before the first came
everything will leave us except the shadows
but the shadows carry the whole story
at first daybreak they open their long wings
At least it feels like the Judgement Day. I have to go before HR today and answer questions. I have no idea what the questions will be because I have no idea what this whole matter is about. I hope I will find out this afternoon during my appointment. I want answers. I need answers. Whether I will get them or not is up to HR. There is too much up in the air for me. I like to know what’s going on.