Like I said Monday, I returned to work. It hasn’t been easy. I’m not sure it would be easy for anyone coming back after being gone nearly a month, but it’s especially not easy when you’re still sick. While I’m not coughing as much, I still have occasional coughing fits. In addition to that, I am very easily out of breath and need to rest. I also haven’t been sleeping well due to some stiffness in my neck and shoulders (they’ve ruled out meningitis so no need to go there), but the pain is severe enough that it wakes me up and all I can do is sit up, let the pain subside a little, and find a new sleeping position. Then it’s a little bit of sleep before the whole thing wakes me up again. Needless to say, I am tired. I’m surprised I haven’t bitten somebody’s head off at this point.
by Helen Hunt Jackson
O Winter! frozen pulse and heart of fire,
What loss is theirs who from thy kingdom turn
Dismayed, and think thy snow a sculptured urn
Of death! Far sooner in midsummer tire
The streams than under ice. June could not hire
Her roses to forego the strength they learn
In sleeping on thy breast. No fires can burn
The bridges thou dost lay where men desire
In vain to build.
O Heart, when Love’s sun goes
To northward, and the sounds of singing cease,
Keep warm by inner fires, and rest in peace.
Sleep on content, as sleeps the patient rose.
Walk boldly on the white untrodden snows,
The winter is the winter’s own release.
I’ve been out of work for nearly a month if you count the vacation time the school give us over the holiday. First I was out sick with an upper respiratory infection, which progressed to atypical (walking) pneumonia. I went back to work feeling some better, but only stayed half a day each on the two days before I flew home. I got the all clear to go home, hoping I’d continue to feel better. I only felt worse. So I called my doctor and saw him on Friday. He now says I have bronchitis and gave me steroids to reduce the selling, he said that with the steroid, I should see significant improvements by the end of the day Monday. If I did not see significant improvement then I’d have to go to the hospital for further tests and another chest x-ray. Since I do feel better, I’m not sure about significantly, I will be going to work today.