Patience and Prayer 

I’ve been trying to decide what to write on today. I could write about that idiot in Kentucky who is refusing to issue marriage licenses, even under a court order, but thinking of her stupidity isn’t worth my time. Plus, nobody seems to be worried about the dozen or so Alabama probate judges who aren’t issuing licenses. I could talk about some of the books I’ve read recently, but quite honestly, I’m not up to it.

Truthfully, there is only one thing on my mind, it’s the results of my job interview last Thursday. I know the interview went well, but did the other candidates do as well? Did they have qualifications that I didn’t? When will I know something? I honestly believe that I am a perfect fit for this job. I hope they do too. I should know something by the end of today. I’d been told they were interviewing two other candidates this week and would make a decision this week. They want to fly someone up next week for an on-site visit. They need someone soon, and from what I gathered, they are not expecting to hire locally. To get someone up next week, they will need to make the arrangements fairly soon, which in my thinking would be not later than today, but I may be wrong. I do not believe they will wait until Friday because they have a big event scheduled for that day. So it should be today or tomorrow.

I am so nervous. I have gotten so many rejection letters, and I really don’t want to hear from these people, “While we were very impressed with your qualifications, we were faced with a difficult decision, and I regret to inform you that we finally selected another candidate who we believe more closely matches what we are looking for in the position.” I am tired of hearing how impressed someone is with my credentials, but that I’m just not what they are looking for. I need, not just want, but need someone to say, “We want you!” One of the things that I enjoyed about my interview Thursday was that they seemed to be trying to convince me that I’d want to move up there and take the job just as much as I was trying to convey how much I thought I’d be the perfect fit.

I just need to be patient. Also, I will continue to pray about the situation.

About Joe

I began my life in the South and for five years lived as a closeted teacher, but am now making a new life for myself as an oral historian in New England. I think my life will work out the way it was always meant to be. That doesn't mean there won't be ups and downs; that's all part of life. It means I just have to be patient. I feel like October 7, 2015 is my new birthday. It's a beginning filled with great hope. It's a second chance to live my life…not anyone else's. My profile picture is "David and Me," 2001 painting by artist Steve Walker. It happens to be one of my favorite modern gay art pieces. View all posts by Joe

One response to “Patience and Prayer 

  • Walter

    I don’t consider myself to be religious, and Lord knows I haven’t been to church or service in many years. I practice Buddhism instead of the the religion my parents taught me while growing up. But in times of duress, I come back to this passage that’s always comforting and offers me respite from worry. I offer it to you, along with metta and kindness during my meditation practice hoping it will grant you a respite and comfort while you wait: Philippians 4:6-8: “Don’t worry about anything, but in everything, through prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpassese every thought, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ.” Best of luck, and sending you good vibes.

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