My Birthday

Today is my birthday, but it’s not a particularly joyous one. First I’m up here all alone with no one to celebrate with. It’s also been a tough year. Last year on this day, I found out that one of my dearest friends had died in a car wreck the night before. It’s been a year of depression and anxiety. Just when I thought I was doing better, my last grandparent, Granny, died. It’s certainly been a year of heartache.

I do not know what this year brings. I have hope that it will bring a good companion into my life. I have hope that it will be a year of less depression and anxiety. I have hope that I will be able to lose some weight. I have hope that I can get my life back onto a track of happiness. A year ago, I was on that track of happiness and i got severely derailed, but things are looking up. I have hope that they will continue to look up.

By the way, I turn 39 today. This is my last year in my 30s. What will the future hold?

About Joe

I began my life in the South and for five years lived as a closeted teacher, but am now making a new life for myself as an oral historian in New England. I think my life will work out the way it was always meant to be. That doesn't mean there won't be ups and downs; that's all part of life. It means I just have to be patient. I feel like October 7, 2015 is my new birthday. It's a beginning filled with great hope. It's a second chance to live my life…not anyone else's. My profile picture is "David and Me," 2001 painting by artist Steve Walker. It happens to be one of my favorite modern gay art pieces. View all posts by Joe

6 responses to “My Birthday

  • Dave

    Hippo birdie two ewe!

  • Rico

    Happy Birthday, Friend. Know that your posts have meaning and are enjoyed from coast to coast. I remember when I turned 30 and I thought I was so old. (lol)…Some years are tough, some years are great. Life is a pendulum but it all works out in the end. Please accept this quote from Auntie Mame as my gift to you, “Live. Live. Live! Life is a banquet and most poor bastards are starving to death.” Cheers from the Pacific NW.

  • John Wright

    Bon Anniversaire! I worked on my 59th birthday at 11 an hour, cooking at a small cafe for 9 hours, with a ten minute break. It’s a great way to stay slim for sure! Ha! Anyway, I’d rather stay busy than sit around without friends to celebrate. I’ve lost so many friends and family over the years, due to suicide, AIDS, “natural” causes, etc… I’m so grateful to be alive, and although I do suffer from depression, can always find a reason to get me through the day with a bit of joy. It’s tough but I do it. Keep your head up, I do enjoy your posts most of the time, so keep it up. Walking every day will also help in more ways than one. Cheers mate!

  • iameverywhere1

    While I tend to be rather forward and blunt in these anonymous postings I am also very light hearted. Depression/anxiety and I have known each other for far too long but I’m doing very well. I’ve learned to not sweat the small stuff and consider every day I wake up as a good one.

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