August 21, 2023

Blue Days

By Joe

If you have or know someone who suffers from depression, you probably know that no matter how much their antidepressants work, there will still be blue days, or just a case of the blahs. If you have plans to do something, you can’t muster the energy to actually follow through. You don’t want to talk to anyone, and you probably don’t want to get off the couch all day, that is if you got out of bed at all.

Yesterday was one of those days for me. The most I could get myself to do was to lay on the couch and binge watch Only Murders in the Building. I made some soup for lunch, but that’s as energetic as it gets. I received some lovely comments on yesterday’s post that I wanted to respond to, but it was not a good day to try to communicate. (Don’t worry, I’ll respond later today.) When I’m like this, I find it hard to communicate with anyone, no matter the mode of communication.

I’m feeling better. Days like yesterday usually don’t last more than about 24 hours or so. I’m not tip top this morning, but I’m at least more functional.

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About Joe

I began my life in the South and for five years lived as a closeted teacher, but am now making a new life for myself as an oral historian in New England. I think my life will work out the way it was always meant to be. That doesn't mean there won't be ups and downs; that's all part of life. It means I just have to be patient. I feel like October 7, 2015 is my new birthday. It's a beginning filled with great hope. It's a second chance to live my life…not anyone else's. My profile picture is "David and Me," 2001 painting by artist Steve Walker. It happens to be one of my favorite modern gay art pieces. View all posts by Joe

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5 responses to “Blue Days”

• Rob T
  August 21st, 2023 at 10:12 am

  Joe, I understand, I go through days like that. And my off day tomorrow might be a day where I remain indoors and out of the August heat and away from others. I still check the world and communicate some but not as much as normal.

  We all need days to ourselves and away from people. Yes, it’s often (but not always) a part of depression but sometimes just a desire to lay low. And some of my best days have been those.

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  • Joe
    August 21st, 2023 at 1:54 pm

    Rob, you’re right. Sometimes we just need some time on our own.

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• Steve Davis
  August 21st, 2023 at 11:37 am

  At least you watched a really good series! I love OMitB! So much fun banter! Glad you blue day had some bright spot. Your friend, Steve

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  • Joe
    August 21st, 2023 at 1:54 pm

    Steve, it was good to watch the show and get some good laughs from it. I’ve finished the first two seasons and am ready to start the third.

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• iameverywhere1
  August 21st, 2023 at 11:10 pm

  This is something I’ve experienced for the last thirty years. I’m MOST fortunate that meds to this day and bits of therapy here and there have done me a world of good as prior to both I was a most unpleasant person. I landed on the right medication cocktail though every few tears they have to be changed,

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